January 15, 2010 @ 3:48 PM
13 december 2010emotional..
why am i born liddat?
i was born to be hated by others
well, i hate myself too.
i hate the way i am
i hate the appearance i have
i hate the attitude i have
i hate myself for being so stupid and dumb
i cant feel the love from my family
my father hate to hear me talk
my mum hates to hear me say
my sis hates me to the core
oh gosh..
quarreled wif father ytd
i was talking to my sis and finding ways to help her wif it
our com. was spoiled, sent for reparation
she cant do her hw without com, complaining to mum
i tried to ask her to sort of get help from her friends'listing a few ppl to her at th same time..
then, my father wanted me to SHUT UP.
he said i shouldnt be busybody since my sis is not talking to me
i was totally freaked out and pissed off lor..):
cant i try to help her? D:
told mum bout the scholarship thingy
that i havent receive my letter,
but im sure i should have gt it wad
since im ranked 12?:/
okay, she doesnt believe me.
she said 'if the government nvr gif, meant that i had not th right to get'
...
try explaining to her
then she ask me to SHUTUP(kind of)
) =
ltr on, did POA hw
ask her for the solutions[calling for her more than five times]
and im sure she heard me D:
and there she was chatting wif my sis happily..==
obviously she was avoiding me )':
BLAHBLAHBLAH.
SCHOOL
i gt the feeling regretting the request to ms Ng for me to sit wif SY
felt dat its th wrong choice to do.
Lik im seperating SY and ZY they'll lor ):
shit, i suck man.
im a totally rotten person T_T
lols,
i think im getting depression
anyone?pls help me out of this, will you ? D=
waliao, random.
